As promised in my New Years Resolution post, here is more about how I am finding my voice again after losing it to my imposter. Like many people, I struggle to contain my imposter and often let it control what I do. Which is why I am now fighting my imposter syndrome.

Fighting my Imposter

What is Imposter Syndrome?

For anyone who hasn’t heard of this (as quoted from the book); Imposter syndrome is a phenomenon in which people believe they are not worthy of success. They convince themselves that they have done well due to luck and are terrified their shortcomings will eventually be exposed, making it impossible to enjoy their accomplishments.

For example, my imposter is often verbal when writing a post. It likes to tell me things like; “No one will care what you think.” or “There is a better way of writing that” or “Why do you try to do something you aren’t very good at?”. All of which are not helpful and I am now constantly reminding myself that it is my imposter talking and it is not true. 

Last year I was loaned a book called The Imposter Cure: Escape the mind-trap of imposter syndrome by Jessamy Hibberd. I knew about Imposter Syndrome, but it wasn’t until I read this book I understand it fully. After reading it though I realised my imposter was taking over a lot more than it should be. 

Ways I have started to take control back 

There was so much information in this book that I could give you but here are the three main things I now do in fighting my imposter. 

1. I gave my Imposter a voice 

It sounds slightly silly to say this (possibly my imposter talking) but it does help. Her voice is squeaky, kind of annoying but different to my internal voice. This one was hard to start with because the voices got mixed up. But now it is great because I can say to myself that is my imposter and not me. 

2. Removed her from internally within me 

By taking my imposter out of my body and envisioning her outside it means I can remove her from me. Now that does sound silly because she is a voice in my head but again it does work. After moving her outside of me I had to give her a look so my imposter is a little old ugly lady, she is attached to a string (like the ducks you pull along as a child). This means she can get closer but also further away from me. When she has more control she is close and sometimes hanging off of me. But when she has less control she is further away from me. And although not gone completely yet maybe one day she will be.

My imposter syndrome – a pull along duck
3. Fighting my imposter 

A lot of the advice is simply having to keep struggling through even when you feel like your imposter is winning. This means even when my imposter is saying all these things to me while writing, I have to keep pushing through and writing. If I stop writing I am letting her win and that isn’t going to help anyone! If I let her win once she gets closer, if I keep fighting her though she keeps moving further away, getting quieter and less often.

Who should read this book? 

I think everyone should read this book. Even if you don’t suffer from imposter syndrome, many people don’t. Having an understanding of how other people have this constant battle can help both them and you.  

As always thank you for reading my blog and I hope you can understand a little more about why I haven’t been writing recently. But also hopefully you can help me to keep my imposter at least at arms length, if not a bit further. Each time someone reads my blogs posts or likes my posts on Instagram it shows to my imposter that I am right and she is wrong.